“Let us know, let us strive to know the LORD; as certain as the dawn is his coming, and his judgement shines forth like the light of day!” (Hosea 6:3)
Mmmm. Today was a day. Today was a day I was grossly underprepared for.
I stayed up really late last night catching up with my brother in law, his wife and their adorable little baby. It was so great.
But I had a paper to write and then had to go meet up with my group to work out the details of this presentation that is due on Monday.
So I woke up extra early today, threw my headphones on and worked out the last parts of the paper while slurping down some coffee.
I then drove to school dejected to be leaving my family but knowing that June 21 is just around the corner.
Let’s just say the meeting didn’t go the way I had hoped.
I got in my car, a flustered hot mess and literally said: Jesus, where the heck are you? I am trying so hard here, but you’re really not helping me out at all. Hello… can you hear me? Bueller. Bueller.
How ironic that today’s readings would remind me that his coming is certain. His justice and mercy are a sure thing. And his love is not going anywhere, even though sometimes I cannot feel it.
Tonite, before I crash, I am going to try to dive into Hosea a little but more deeply. I want to know the Lord. I want to know his unrelenting and unsurpassable love. I want Him. I just need to figure out how to ask him to meet me where I am.