“I will cut a road through all my mountains, and make my highways level.” (Isaiah 49:11)
You know, lately I have been wondering when God is going to swoop down and magically tell me what’s going on in my life and what the future holds. Isn’t that how this life thing works? The heavens open up and God says: TURN RIGHT. IN 400 FEET YOU WILL ARRIVE AT YOUR DESTINATION.
Okay not really. I feel like my conversations are more like that scene in Ferris Bueller where the professor asks if anyone knows about the Smoot- Hawley Tariff Act. Bueller? Bueller?
But today’s first reading tells me that God will clear a path if I can only wait upon His timing. I need not worry about all of the small details- He will take care of them for me.
I don’t really know about you, but this lent has been border line crazy for me. like… why in the world is it this difficult to stick to a yes you have given to God?
I seem to be wrestling with the idea of giving up my levels of control. I feel like if I could only do a little bit better, be a little bit more and find a little more time I would be the most productive person on the planet.
But today’s reading reminds me that I am not really called to be the one clearing the path. I can only be who I am. I can’t be anything more or anything less. And As long as I can be who God asked me to be, then He will clear the paths for me.
My brain gets it. But my heart doesn’t.
Here’s to many more days of prayer trying to understand how to give this yes!