“It is easy to recognize when the fire that comes from Christ no longer burns: the weight of daily life makes it evident, and life ceases to sing.” (Davide Prosperi, Page One: At The Beginning It Was Not So!)
This line really took my breath away. How often do we feel like we are just in survival mode? Between school and work and trying to have some semblance of a social life, my life has become what seems to me, mundane. How is this so?! I did all of these tasks before, and felt fulfilled and happy. But now I feel as if I am constantly trying to find something else to make me feel fulfilled and happy.
Maybe if I bullet journal. Maybe if I add some body hacking workout routine. Maybe if I take up calligraphy. Maybe, maybe, maybe. And I continue to try all these new things, hoping that something will re-spark the song of a life well lived inside of me.
But maybe I am looking in all the wrong places to start up the song again. The rest of this section of the article talks about how God brings us back to His path when we are trying to find joy in other things. It’s not that these other things are bad, it’s just that they are not the things that He wants us to find joy in.
This year, my resolution is to be where my feet are. To learn how to embrace this current moment, rather than constantly prepare for the next moment.
I am going to try to go back to finding joy in the path that Christ has laid out for me right now- going to work, then going to school. Trying my best to keep my house presentable enough to open my doors and share the love. Doing my laundry once a week. Writing letters to the people I love.
School, work and family are my life right now. And that is a beautiful thing in and of itself. I don’t need to be anything other than exactly who I am supposed to be.
And being exactly who I am supposed to be will help my heart to sing once more.