I have realized something recently. I am a creature of habit.
House Blend coffee with half and half every morning.
Apple Products for life.
Find one pair of jeans that fits? QUICK! Buy every single color because you can never find jeans that simultaneously cover your booty and your ankles.
Never switch your planner. No matter how beautiful the new planner looks, or how much you want to be even more organized, you will always go back to the OG black, hardcover moleskin.
These things seem trivial and quite frankly, they are. But they are indicative of a deeper personality trait that I seem to have.
I like an established routine, and
sometimes often I have trouble with changes to my routine.
Then I read an instagram post from an account called One Hail Mary at a Time. If you’ve never heard of her, click here to check her out! In this post on Instagram, she basically said that her and her husband will evaluate where they are in life and if something isn’t working, they make the change to what is going to be best for them.
And somewhere, deep in the recesses of my soul, I knew I needed to make a change that was bigger than just my planner or my morning beverage choices. I needed to make a change that would bring peace to the incredibly weary heart I have been carrying around inside of me.
I have known this for a long time now, and this instagram post, coupled with a bible study of Esther really gave me the courage to start the process of making the changes I need to make to be the best version of myself, the version of myself that God wants me to be.
In the spirit of authenticity that this blog has come to embody, I just wanted to admit that this is hard for me. It’s all still really new, but I am coming to ask for prayers as I start this new journey, and try to figure out what exactly it is I am supposed to do next.
Between the pursuit of a masters degree, a trip to the ER and a retreat that I MC’d, a lot has happened in the past four months of this year 2018.
Each of these events has left a mark on my soul, and has stirred in me a new desire to give back to the world in a better way than I was.
I’m sure as time goes on, I will have the opportunity to tell you more about all these big changes, but for now, throw up an extra Hail Mary for me if you think about it.
I’ll be praying for you as well.