Today’s gospel is a doozy. Joseph is trying to figure out how to divorce Mary quietly to still give her some dignity when an angel comes to him and tells him not to do that because this child would change the world. (Matthew 1:18-25)
I try to think about what this would be like and honestly I am probably only understanding a sliver of Joseph’s confusion. No really though. Who is this tiny baby that somehow has this super angel coming down to totally disrupt everyone’s life? EVERYONE.
Oh hey there angel of the Lord… sure I will totally uproot my entire existence over this child that you say will do great things.
But what faith Joseph, Mary, Elizabeth and Zechariah had. I am constantly in awe of the way in which these people handle these life changing moments.
I, on the other hand, do not handle change very well. I am so about my planner. I carefully cross out each task as I accomplish it and if it’s not in my planner in the first place, it totally didn’t exist. I would lose my ever loving mind if an angel came to me and totally destroyed my plans.
But in some ways, all of my plans have been so greatly changed this advent season. God has called me to some things I didn’t really see myself doing. This blog for instance. I don’t know where the stamina to post every single day came from but… here I am. He also asked me to step back from some of the things that were very important to me, in order to be more present to my family with my current work load. It was hard to say yes to that, and I wrestled with it for many months before finally being able to say yes.
This child about to be born for us again comes to make all things good. He only wants what is best for us. He only wants our yes.
I want to be more like Joseph, willing to say yes even when it will disrupt my perfectly planned life.
Today’s song is a an old classic. To me, it very much is how I react to God when he tells me this tiny baby is coming to change the status quo. What Kind of baby can do that?! What child is this that will come to change my life? It stirs in me a great sense of awe towards all that is to come.
I hope it gives you a sense of awe and wonder on this cold winter morning.