“At a time when people are talking a lot about freedom, we witness the paradox of it’s absence. And what is even worse, we have settled for living without it.” (Carron, Disarming Beauty)
Freedom. This is a word I hear a lot lately. With each passing day, another news story pops up, begging me to pick a political side, choose a freedom that totally annihilates the freedom of the person on the opposite side of party lines.
I look to my friends who are married and not doing the MBA thing, and I wish myself to the freedom of not taking classes any longer.
I wish myself to the freedom of reading a book for fun, or watching a television show without having to write a paper at the same time.
I wish myself to the freedom of designated prayer time, that doesn’t brutally disrupt my precious few hours of sleep.
I wish myself to the freedom of time set aside each day to do chores and always keep my house in the tidy order I like it in.
This is me, every single day of my life. If only I had more time. If only I had less to do. If only, If only, If only.
And suddenly I have settled for living without freedom, always just assuming it will come with the next phase of life.
But there is freedom in the small sacrifices. There is freedom in gratitude. There is freedom in letting go of the comparisons and the preconceived notions that freedom looks better on the other side.
Moving forward, I am going to choose freedom. I will get up, just a little earlier to make time to pray. Heck, I may even try to pray at night too (wouldn’t that be something?!). I will complete just one chore a day. Maybe tackling a little at a time will help with the overall tidiness I so long for. I will read for fun at least one night a week, even if it is just a few pages. I will try to write my paper before watching that show- keeping my priorities in line, and being overall more effective. I will be grateful that I get to go to school to pursue this degree that I know I will ultimately love.
But most importantly, I will make sure to Thank God for each and every trial, and the continuing opportunity to sacrifice that He has given me, rather than constantly lamenting my “lack” of freedom. I will choose to live in the freedom of every good and perfect gift that has been given to me at this moment.
What is holding you back from choosing freedom today?